catching up

feeling: lazy
listening to: "The Siren" by Aesthetic Perfection

I haven't written in this thing in forever and it's come to my attention that I need to start up again. A lot has changed in the past year or so for me and the biggest thing I dealt with was a boyfriend that turned out to be an alcoholic. It's funny how you can have so many important things going on in your life and yet you let the little things like that bring you down into a deep depression and you forget all that's beautiful in life. I can't allow that to happen anymore. I want to get up, dust myself off and skip off back into the world with a smile on my face and passion in my heart. Here's to trying....

I graduated college this May with an Associate's in American Sign Language and Interpreting which was a wonderful accomplishment. I never thought I'd make it past 18 let alone graduate college and start working. The "working" part hasn't come around yet since the market is so bad these days but I am soooo close to getting a job as an interpreter that I can almost taste it. I've been sick since I was 14 so I never had a job and I can't wait until everything falls into it's place for me in that field. I really do love ASL and it's neat to go to the Deaf Night Out events we have here in Phoenix once a month. I'm getting better and better each day and it'll be a job that I'll never stop learning in and I love that.

For fun, I've been going to concerts as much as possible. Went to see 30 Seconds to Mars twice, once in Vegas and once here in Phoenix and it BLEW ME AWAY!! I love you Jared Leto. Just this weekend I saw a band called Combichrist who is kind of like a gothic techno type band, industrial. I danced until I was pretty much about to pass out but yet my breathing was fine, my legs were working and I had the drive so I just kept on dancing. I NEVER take that for granted. Ever. I try to talk to friends as much as possible but it gets boring just sitting at home all day so I started volunteering with a place called Project C.U.R.E. They send medical equipment and help to countries who need it. I've started by cleaning off equipment and seeing if it works before we send it off and I think it's really neat to do. I didn't get to go this week because I have no money to get gas and head over there but as soon as I do I'm going to be helping out again because it made me feel like I am doing something worth while. It's a great feeling.

Um....since my last entry I don't know if I wrote about my friend Mason passing away. Or Steve, or Mike....*sigh* I hate losing people close to me. Mason was particularly hard for me because he was close to my age and it was something that could have been so easily prevented. Don't even get me started but yeah, I really took that one rough. If I go by my motto though that our purpose in life is to inspire and leave a legacy than these men did so. I will always remember them for everything they taught me with all they've been through. I only hope people will remember me the same way.

As far as my health my lungs have been pretty good *knock on wood* and I see my doctors in San Francisco in January for my usual testing stuff. Yay! I love my doctors. <3 The one health problem that's been most annoying though is skin cancer. I've had a lot of squamous cell carcinoma which is one of the better ones but its still no good. It took 4 years for my dermatologist to figure out that was what was on my lip. Thank God it's gone now but it was also all over my head as well. I guess that's what I get for living in the Valley of the Sun, huh? I really am considering moving in about a year to a place like Seattle where there is less chance of skin cancer. I'd definitely be a lot better off. I wish I could move to SF but I'd have to be rich to attempt that. Or, I can just move to Forks, WA like in Twilight. Who knows, maybe I'll find my Edward Cullen there. ;)

That's all for now I guess. I'll write more when I get the chance. xoxoxoxox people!